What No One Tells You About Having a Baby You Never Actually Wanted

The picture taken at 3 weeks of age

A month after giving birth, I was lying in my bed, consumed by an all-powerful emotion.

Fear.

“Please don’t leave me alone”, I said to my husband for the hundredth time. “Please. Take another month. Stay with me longer. I can’t do it on my own. I can’t. I won’t.”